I did not notice it arrive straight away,
More, when it refused to leave.
It embedded itself within me,
Caused havoc and frustration,
Like an uninvited guest who has outstayed his welcome.
It seeped into the core of my being,
Destroyed who I was, left me messy, confused.
"I want you to go!" I cry,
But it cannot hear, not should it listen if it could.
It has already resolved to be my eternal companion,
And in this, it seems, I have no say.
I have M.E, and to be honest this is a daily struggle. I try to stay positive, and to manage my frustrations which is not easy. I wrote these words this week, as I was struck with COVID on top of my usual issues, which I have not managed too well the last month or so. I have been feeling alone, vulnerable and if I am honest, scared with how poorly I have felt. Amidst my dizzy thoughts and pain, these words were scribbled down, and I wanted to share them, in the hope that they may resonate with others who may be struggling. It is important, I have learned, while fighting these dark days, not to feel alone.
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